I was working a 14 hour day this day, as it was a Monday April 14th, 2019. I had just worked at the school & I was headed straight to my second job, I was in line for Starbucks for something to keep me awake for the rest of the evening/night.
As it
was only the start of the week! I had called my brother to tell him, I was ready to go to the south! I was ready to move out of Utah. He
said “That’s great. Do you know where you're going & all these questions a brother would ask!” I just simply said “no, I have no idea yet! But I should go probably check it out huh?” He says “Kelly, you should move to Ohio!” I started “dying
laughing, I said there’s absolutely no way! Nope, not happening! Thanks but no thanks! Nope! Nope! Nope!” He says “I’m serious, you can live in my basement & save up as much money as you want/ can & you can move wherever
you’d like! Just think of how much money you’d save!” He was onto something. I had this feeling come over me, that I don’t know if I had ever felt anything like it before,
I simply say “okay” he says “okay?” I said “Let’s do it! I think you are right. I’m 32, and I would like to work to be able to buy something of my own, I’d love to have something for myself!” He couldn’t believe it, & well neither could I! I woke up Tuesday, wondering if I had fallen & hit my head or what actually happened to me.
That feeling I had was God, telling me that it was going to be okay, that this is what I had to do. I had NO idea why I was ever supposed to move to Ohio.
I had so many questions in my head, maybe just as you would. How many of us, ask ourselves about the future & maybe even try to figure it out for ourselves? I know I am one of them & I could probably think of a few good reasons why, but really what mattered was, I was ready to take a huge leap of faith & trust within myself.
I knew that the change was going to be beyond scary and even a little fear sat within me. What change isn’t scary of so many of the unknowns? I’m sure there are probably a few of us that could be scared of it and not sure if we can take the leap of faith. I learned that I had to remember what my goals were & always keeping that in mind. When I didn’t have all of the answers in front of me, but also knowing it wasn’t my forever. I was going somewhere where I had always said I wouldn’t ever go before or even back too.
I had never done anything like this before in my entire life, picking up & moving across the country leaving a home for the last 12 years of my life.
I was established in Salt Lake City, my friends and what I called home was all there.
I was ready for the change and I was ready to see what was on the other side of the mountains.
We don’t have all of the answers & we might not even have one of the answers. That it's okay to trust within our gut and follow it. I always say “easier said than done” when I give advice, but sometimes I need to listen to my own. As I believe we forget our goals & forget why we even took the leap of faith, because of the fear that can set in and get in the way of us.
We always have to find our strengths within us. We as humans are a lot more powerful than we think and give ourselves credit for. I say that & to tell you, when you are alone & you don’t think you can do it, you have a little self prep talk with yourself. The determination will find you. You stand up taller, believe in you and you go for it! Don’t let anything ever stop you. Be strong & don’t ever, ever forget who you are and what you stand for. Always go after what you want.
I know this world is this big scary place, it is for me. I know when I can take deep breaths, sit down and remember my goals, I keep moving forward. Maybe that's what you need to do, take the leap of faith & move forward or maybe you don’t need to sit down and write them out, and that's okay. As this world is as big as it is, we are all so different in so many ways. Some work this way, while others work that way. We weren't all made to work one cenern way. That is the beauty of being you, while finding out who you are! Maybe the big leap of the faith for the change is just what you need. I don’t know the answers for you, but I can tell -you that you can do it. As change may have bigger answers for the new opportunities ahead for you.
The change is like a roller coaster you might be up, down & all over the place, but if you always know the ride does and will stop, you will get to your final destination. Buckle in cause life is always one heck of a ride. Make sure you smile as the camera as you go by!